It's been one week since my best friend suddenly and without warning dropped the bombshell on me that he and his partner are moving 3,000 miles away in 3 months.

My emotions have run the gamut since then. I've been devastated, angry, depressed, incredulous, desperate, confused, bitter and guilty. Life after October 31 or so will be difficult.

But I also want to say that I wish them a happy life together in their new home base. That's the thing: I've been angry and hurt by their decision and the way they made it, but I also still care about them and wish them the best. It's this concept of duality that I've been exploring for about six months. It's OK for me to experience two or more seemingly conflicting emotions at the same time.

So I'm sad that I won't be part of this new chapter in their lives, but I sincerely want what's best for them. I don't know what the future will hold for me (possibly grad school?), but for now I've achieved a measure of peace. Who knows what tomorrow will bring? But at least for tonight, peace.

Of course, the St. John's Wort probably has something to do with that too. I'm just saying.